By now it is no secret that I am expecting. It’s been a rough first trimester. I am still trying to navigate through all sickness, exhaustion and emotional state my body has been through the last few months. Thankfully, everyday I feel a little bit better. Because I will be 40 this year, we opted to have some genetic testing to rule out certain abnormalities such as down syndrome and other chromosomal deficiencies. With this type of testing you typically find out the sex of the baby early on as well. So At 10 weeks I had my blood drawn and waited the long 7-10 days for results. I have to say, I probably thought about this test every minute of the 7 days I had to wait for the results. Not that any of the answers would change anything. We would adapt as we always do but still it’s scary. I was nervous and I couldn’t sleep wondering what the sex was either. I love being a girl mom (a mom of three girls here) but I have always dreamt of having a son. Early on in my pregnancy I had a dream. In the dream I was having a conversation with God. He told me that I would be having a son and that his name would be Silas. When I woke up the next morning, I immediately told Shane about my dream and we both agreed, should we have a boy, Silas would be his name (I know, it sounds so virgin Mary). God works mysterious ways in my life and this isn’t the first time I have had a conversation with him in a dream. Most likely because I don’t sit still long enough, this is the only way He can get my undivided attention . Either way, throughout the next few weeks, deep down, I think I knew based off the dream. However, after three girls, my mind was telling me – no way this would be a boy. I am a girl mom, that is all I know.
After waiting 7 long days my doctor called and gave me wonderful news. All the testing showed low-risk for any chromosomal defects including down syndrome. We were thrilled! She also asked if we wanted to know the sex. Here’s where Sam comes in the picture. We had already discussed how this would go down. I would request an envelope to be left up front at my doctors office and Sam would pick it up. Because we didn’t know when the results would come in, and I am so impatient, we had less than 24 hours to plan this gender reveal and finally find out – boy or girl. Sam picked up the envelope and of course immediately opened it – so she knew a good 6 hours before we did. She made her rounds having the cupcakes and balloon filled with pink or blue. All the while barely speaking to me that day. In my mind, I thought because she was quiet that it had to be a girl. If it were a boy she would be way more excited and try to have more general conversation with me. That’s when I realized I would be slightly disappointed if it wasn’t a boy. Until that very moment I didn’t even know I cared about the sex. As a matter of fact, I originally thought having another girl would just be easier. I mean, by now I know what I am doing. However, that wasn’t the case. I felt myself get a little sad. I really wanted a boy and that dream I had – I for sure thought it was a sign. Anyway, I picked my chin up and put my big girl panties on and reminded myself all the fun things about having another girl. By the time everyone arrived at 6 pm I had already convinced myself I was having a fourth girl and I was good with it. We planned to do the reveal and popping of the balloon at 6:30 sharp because I had a ton of family who would be watching it live on facebook. Below is a short clip of the video we took. Watch for yourself – girl or boy??
Can you believe it? Several days later and we are still in shock. The long version of the video showed me bawling like a big baby. Finally!!! A Boy. Silas Knox you are already so loved, buddy. What an adventure this will be for our family. Did I mention that He will be the first BOY on my side of the family? Everyone called me crying and so excited. We are thrilled and just feel so incredibly blessed. Oh and let’s talk for just a second about how sneaky Sam was all day. How she kept that in and had a straight face, I will never know. I will tell you one thing – she pulled off the best surprise of my life. So once again, thank you to my sweet friend!